I cannot start my day with anyone else’s cup of tea.

Today I woke up and I decided:

that I am more important…

That my well-being has to be my main priority…

That I can not start my day with anyone else’s cup of tea..

That as seasons change,

I can not cry over fallen leaves..

I decided that what I need to do for me is more important than anyone’s expectations.

I realized that I can not put a little bit of my light into everyone’s life,

until I have discovered how to keep my own light alive..

I cannot shine everywhere, until I am golden within.

I cannot save everyone, until I have washed away my own sins..

Today I woke up and I decided that this journey starts, proceeds, and finishes within.

Because how can I say I found myself using textbook definitions..

or using reflections of others, when they aren’t in my exact place.

We may have had similar experiences, but not the same exact case.

I can not even save myself, how can I save you ?

Today I woke up and decided that I need more space,

that with some humans I just can’t relate,

that there are topics I must master myself, before I can give or take.

My daily calendar is full of soul-searching, job-searching, dream-chasing, pain-escaping, and rearranging my own perspective..

In hopes that once I move around all these parts of me,

I will finally feel connected.