I need moments of clarity  for this disparity,

that I feel in my heart.

No I don’t need your charity,

I just need me.

I need time to unwind and listen to the divine .
The voice that feels like it’s coming from up above,
but It’s from inside, and I don’t hear it enough .
Only when it’s quiet and my mind starts a riot,
against my heart.
If I would have just listened to that voice,
I wouldn’t be here rewinding from the start.
Looking back , I need to ask:
What did I do to made this last for so long ?
Yet it’s so wrong , and it feels right
When I’m alone at night.
These are tricks that I play on myself.
Just for fun , just because it can be done.
But do I really want it ?
No I don’t really want it.
I just need to taunt it when my soul feels haunted by loneliness.
The truth is life is a battle between:
thoughts and actions
our feelings and our demons.
I know I deserve more than treason,
But the way you make me feel is the reason
I keep coming back for more.
Then, I stop and I catch myself.
The battle between reality and dreams
Is almost bad for my health.
I like to test the waters
Maybe this time will be different.
Nah who am I kidding?
It’s just so entertaining
when I’m risking
My heart and yours.
Your wondering whats the battle for ?
We’re all looking for something worth dying for.
Written by Loraine “Lorri Love” Donayre .